This June is nearly impossible to blog... so much change and happiness, and so much sadness. So I'm telling it through pictures... as they speak more appropriately than my words at times....
The girls spent the first weekend in June at the Ocean with my family celebrating my grandfather's 80th birthday... Matt and I hung back with Bean and Bit because I had too many mommies waiting to have babies! I do love this picture though... my family is so blessed to have such amazing grandparents in our life.
Tragedy struck this month in the cruelest way it can given what I do for work. My dear friends Sean and Tim gave birth to a gorgeous stillborn baby boy, Samuel Finn on June 10th. I can't bring myself to write much more than this at the moment. The strength I have seen through the love of those two parents has left me humbled beyond words. I will attempt words at some point, as he left a beautiful footprint in this world and in the hearts of many people. Peace be with you, Sweet Sam.
FOUR doula-babies made their arrival in the last weeks of June. One baby was born the day before Father's Day, two babies were born (on the same day) while Matt was in Connecticut and one last one held out until the end of June. I was impressed with myself when it came to finding the inner strength to attend these labors... watching my friend suffer the heartache no mother should ever endure was enough to make me hang up my Rebozo but I sucked it up and found that being in those birth rooms with those parents and the new healthy wriggling babies was enough to reignite the spark I thought had gone out of my doula-engine.
I turned the basement apartment that was formerly occupied by my mom into a playroom! This was exciting... I channelled all of my sorrow and pain after Sam's passing into making an epic playroom and I was pretty proud (and tired) after it was done!
Then Bean got sick. Super sick. It was NOT fun... he had a wicked high fever for nearly a week and we took him into the hospital worried out of our heads that it was something horrid. The guess is it was a virus but YIKES it was not fun seeing all of the energy tapped from his little energetic self.
So really? June can be done... I'm ready for July and the rest of the summer!!!